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Hi to anyone reading this,My beautiful daughter passed away in 2019 the day before my son’s 10th Birthday. I was having a little sleep in that Sunday morning, when my hubby came in to wake me up crying and screaming and fell to his knees beside the bed, saying I don’t know how to tell you this,I said tell me what? Kellie has passed away he had to tell me a couple of times for it to sink in, then the HOW ,WHAT,WHEN came into play and the crying of me saying no no no no no for two days over and over again, i was in disbelief I was in shock i couldn’t process what I’ve just been told.Then your mind shifts into omg I’ve now have to organise a funeral never in my life did I ever think I was going to Cremate one of my children, it’s not meant to be that way.My daughters death was under investigation for nearly 12 months ,the coroner had her body at the morgue for almost two weeks.I wasn’t aloud to see her at all because I wasn’t the next of kin, which for me really sucked I was so angry and upset when it came to certain things that I didn’t have the right because her boyfriend was her next of kin I think this needs to change its not right I’m her mother.The last time I seen her was a week earlier but spoke to her a couple of days before to tell her about her brothers birthday he was having a go carting party to see if she wanted to come, she said yeah mum I’ll try see him Saturday or Sunday well of course she didn’t make it.Well since then my life has changed forever half my heart died with her that day it will never be whole again it aches everyday I can’t switch my brain off I can’t sleep i cry all the time cry a lot in the car I’m severely depressed Ive been seeing my psychiatrist since then don’t know wether his really doing anything except play around with my medications.I really would like to join some sort of group with people in the same situation but there doesn’t seem to be many around for some reason . Ive had a few other things going on since then as well we lost 5 friends after my daughter with a couple killing them selves. My family pet had a tumour and died we got robbed NYE and some of the stuff they took was from my daughter or was hers it absolutely gutted me.I could go on and on but I don’t want to bore you and I’m tired now I suppose I just wanted to vent a little bit.I’m open for any advice thanks for taking the time to read my little story..
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