Reply To: Sad. TW: Stalking, Suicidal Ideation and Possible DV.

[gurindjiwoman]

Hello,

You are absolutely correct. And I am currently studying, so I really want to to well, but on the same token, I just want to end it all. This man has that much of an impact on me, it has got to the point that he has traumatised me – try and make sense of that!

I always had my feelings for this man invalidated by my family, because he wasn’t good enough for me in their eyes. They don’t want me dating an overweight man in his fifties and is stuck in a dead end job, earning hardly any money. The truth is that I am happy with his career pathway and the money that he earns, and I am also happy with what he looks like. My family expect me to be married to a man who is muscular with a great career. I couldn’t care less about any of that. Hell, I don’t even want a career anymore myself (due to ongoing and relentless bullying in school as well as from this man). Why are people so cruel to me?