It is incredibly hard. It is a real battle to stay ‘positive’. I have just gone through a break up after 26 years of marriage to a narcissist. I definitely have my ups and downs. Being older makes me think I will be alone for the rest of my life and that is a very scary thought but then I realise that I have already been alone for a long time because he was not emotionally present for ages. I am not sure what the answer is here?