So lost. I lost my adopted brother this week. while he’d been struggling with cancer for a while I’m still shocked. I live interstate (Melbourne) to him and my other brothers and haven’t seen them for two years cause of COVID so finding it hard to process that he’s just gone. I’m shattered and surprised that i am shattered as well cause we’ve hardly connected over the last 20 years. We lived parallel lives coming and going at life events. But i knew when he was dieing the other night, I woke up burst into tears and told him it’s ok to go know. I got the call in the morning from my other brother to let us know. My other brothers we’re able to care for him cause they live closer. I’m terrible at grief, it just really floors me. Ahhhhh yup that’s my story. I’ve been doing practical things like calling venues interstate for the wake and ringing all the COVID services to see what we can do. I still feel useless and so far away though. Thanks for listening.