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On the 18 Feb 2012 I met my beautiful girl. She was living in terrible conditions, she was flea ridden, food aggressive and had never played with toys or on grass. A new start with a new name Abbey. I promised her from that day she would never be hungry, cold or unloved. All I needed was for her to trust me, and she did. She became part of my heart and soul, a shadow who didn’t like to be parted from me. In the 10 years we shared we only had 3 nights apart, one night following surgery for her and recently when I spent 2 nights in hospital. Abbey had some minor surgeries and became suddenly blind which meant it was no longer safe for her to sleep in my bed so she had one right next to me. 3 years ago she was diagnosed with cancer that required her tail to be amputated and shortly after a toe, so many more surgeries followed as she also had another form of cancer. In 2020 I decided to not subject her to further treatment as I didn’t want to to endure the pain the surgery caused. At this time she was also suspected of having cushings disease but decided that since her life expectancy was limited treatment would not extend her life. Living with an elderly blind unwell dog had its challenges, many nights she would wander and become lost so I would get out of bed to help her find her way back, she also had incontinence problems so accidents became a daily occurrence. I had always expected we would have some final time once she was not enjoying life anymore. Sunday night she started vomiting and appeared very uncomfortable, took her to the vet as soon as it opened. They option was to treat the nausea and wait or undergo blood tests. I chose to run the tests immediately and they showed she was in a much worse condition then expected. Her liver levels were off the chart so she was admitted for fluids and an ultrasound with the expectation that she would spend a few days and maybe begin treatment if it was related to cushings. That night I received a devastating call, her liver was extremely enlarged, her stomach lining was thickened with signs of lesions and her gallbladder was in danger of imminent rupture. I bought her home on pain meds for one final night of love and a chance to say goodbye. My adult children came to say goodbye, my eldest son is currently working in NZ so was only able to face time. I’ve been living in anticipation of her passing for 3 years but the suddenness and finality of having to let her go has broken my heart. I kept my promise to never let her suffer but after having having spent so much time caring for her needs I feel so lost. The other pets are missing her too so its hard to help them live without their best friend.
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