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Please help, i am feeling so desperate, i just want to die and be with my baby. I lost my beautiful 15 year old angel girl (Golden Retriever) 5 weeks ago, I have had her since she was 6 weeks old she was my child. I am not coping with this painful grief and trauma and shock and don’t know what to do I am scared of this becoming a deep and serious depression. I just want to die and be with her, I cannot go on without her, she was my child that I just loved and adored as I don’t have children I cannot accept that she is gone and that I will never see her again I have nothing to live for without her, she was my whole world and I lived for her, my whole world revolved around her.
The day after her 15th Birthday we ended up at the vet but it took me a whole week to find the strength to make the decision and I cannot live with myself for taking her life away from her. I am unable to live in my house because I am expecting to see her there and the realisation just shocks me and I just need her back so desperately
I survived divorce with her by my side. I feel so traumatised and guilty that I had to make the decision as she was suffering.
I am not living without her, I am unable to get out of bed as have no motivation or purpose to go on, I am broken and devastated. This grief and trauma is unbearable and I cannot go on with this pain. I have nothing to go on for if I can never see her beautiful face again She was my best friend, my emotional support and constant loyal companion that loved me unconditionally and I relied on her. I loved and adored her more than life i cannot accept she has left me alone. I would give my life if I could have her back.
I cannot even think about her it hurts so much, I have gone into denial that she is not with me
I am awake all night worrying and crying because i cannot kiss her goodnight. I am nauseous with anxiety I don’t know what to do to try and recover but I feel guilty for having a life when I took her life away from her.
I cannot go on without ever seeing my beautiful baby again i don’t want to live with this pain
I cannot handle this pain, my heart is totally shattered
I am guilty for making the decision to stop her suffering, I always said that I would let her go when she was ready to go. Maybe she wasn’t ready to leave me
Everyone tells me how much she loved and adored me too
I know she will forever own my heart but I cannot accept never seeing her beautiful face looking at me again
How do I go on, I have nothing to live for.
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