Thank you for sharing your story with us. I can hear in it your incredible depths of love for her. Abbey is so lucky to have had you for the time that she did and I’m sure you feel the same about having had her in your life. It sounds like, in addition to being a loving pet owner, you were a carer too and adjusting to no longer occupying this role can also contribute to your sense of loss. I wonder if you have had a chance to read the Griefline resources on Losing a Pet (https://griefline.org.au/resources/losing-a-pet/)? It offers some helpful tips on how to handle your grief, and the grief of your other pets and family members after such a loss too. Dogs are such wonderful companions and I’m sure that after everything you went through with Abbey this loss is deep and significant. Be kind to yourself as you navigate your way through this loss and please do keep talking and feel free to share other memories of Abbey too.