I’m sorry for your loss. The struggle you described reflects how important both your mum and your job are to you.
I can’t assume, but I hope you’ve allowed yourself some time to just sit with the grief.
Losing a parent bring up a lot of unresolved stuff in our relationships and even existential questions.
I lost my dad 4 year ago. I dived back into my high-pressure job less than 2 weeks after.
Needless to say, my mind was a little distracted and I wasn’t able to enjoy my work for some time, and I’m sure it affected my output.
Only after taking some much needed time off, where (amongst other things) I discovered a new way of continuing my bond with dad, and learning to go easy on myself that things shifted. I found it to be extremely healing.
I wish this for you too.
All the best. A big hug to you.
- This reply was modified 1 month, 4 weeks ago by vmHope.