Sorry to hear that things have been difficult for you. Sounds like it is a bit difficult for you to cope with your grief because of your job. It is normal for grief to be overwhelming and to make us feel helpless.
I’m wondering if you’ve checked out the articles on Griefline’s resource hub. https://griefline.org.au/resources/coping-with-loss/ provides some tips and information that you might find helpful, such as engaging in self-care – eating regular meals, engaging in activities you enjoy and getting adequate sleep.
Keep sharing your story, we’re here to listen. Feel free to contact the helpline or book a call on Griefline’s website if you would like to chat.