I am soo sorry to hear about the tragedy that has happened to you and your family. I would firstly like to say that what you are feeling is a normal part of the grief process and to feel as though you wish it was you in the car with your husband may feel completely overwhelming, but it is understandable. You spent most of your life with your husband by the sounds of it, and to have worked very closely together, this loss is absolutely profound and I hear that. As you mentioned, you had plans to retire and travel together at the end of this year. Do you have support around you? I really hope you have support from other loved ones at this extremely difficult time. What happened to you matters and I see the devastation of your loss. You are not alone. We are here for you! You are incredibly strong to come here to express what you have been through. You are stronger than you know and you will get through this.
If you feel like you are not coping at all and feel that you are overwhelmed, please call Lifeline to speak to a crisis supporter on 13 11 14. Griefline is now operating 8am-8pm AEST Monday-Friday. You can also schedule a booked call from an experienced Griefline counsellors outside of these hours or during the week. To book this service please click here https://griefline.org.au/get-help/ and click on the top right area “Book a Call”. Please take the time to familiarise yourself with our diverse range of content on the Griefline website Ressource Hub. Resources include highly informative articles, fact sheets. step by step guides to coping strategies, an e-book, explainer videos, and self-care tools. The Resource Hub can be accessed here; https://griefline.org.au/resources/
Please check in with us and let us know how you are coping. Sending you the biggest virtual healing hug. Stay kind to yourself!