Oh, so sorry to hear @amaniee612. This must have been such a tough day for you. Your baby lab has been such an important part of your life, and you have spent so much time with him. Totally understandable that you feel lost now and overwhelmed by grief and hurt. And I can imagine that you also find it upsetting that others in your family seem to just get on with it. We do grieve differently, and loss affects us differently. I think it is great that you reach out and talk about your grief on this forum, particularly as you might feel that your family does not quite get what’s going on for you.
The pain you experience shows how close you were with your baby boy and how much you love him. And while it might never go away completely same as your love for him that will never go away, it will probably change over time and you might want to keep us posted how you are going on your journey. I can imagine that a lot of people who read this can relate to your grief.
I hope you manage to get some sleep. And maybe your baby boy will be there with you during the night. Take care.