Hi @missingher, Thank you so much for being vulnerable and expressing how you feel. I am so sorry this happened and that you are feeling lost and adrift, she sounded like an amazing woman. The death of a loved one can be extremely traumatic, especially as this was so sudden and unexpected for you. Your ability to find the online forums at Griefline and be open and honest in reaching out shows that you have immense strength within you and perseverance to get through this.
It is completely normal to re-live memories of someone who has recently passed away, especially if it is someone that you loved so dearly. You are definitely not alone, Griefline will always be here for you and our online forums are an excellent way to speak to others who are experiencing similar emotions.
Although I have never experienced the death of a partner, I have grieved the loss of other loved ones in my life and can understand the immense pain you are feeling right now. When we are grieving we hope to keep their memory alive, which is why you may still be seeing her at places you have a memory together, and this is a totally normal part of grieving.
Griefline has many online recourses, especially related to the loss of a loved one. This link may be helpful: https://griefline.org.au/resources/grief-recovery-part-1-in-search-of-lost-strengths/
I’m just wondering what has been happening since your loved one’s death over the past month?
Please don’t hesitate to keep responding, we are always here x