Reply To: Buried my son on xmas eve

[debsayge]

Dear Moon,
For being your authentic self I’m grateful, yes yes!! Seeing you and walking right there with you!! Me too !! Been sobbing/wailing to exhaustion…. Yes I m right there with the no family it’s always been a struggle because they are there but have never!! Accepted us being not !! Conventional Even though I’ve always tried, not anymore….. both my father and brother have not ! Even acknowledged this, Sometimes I’m worrying with what I say might not be comforting as I’ve been in this almost a year longer, I remember when my ‘compassionate friend’ said after ‘years’ she was still struggling I thought omgosh I’m gonna be like this forever, but now I understand and accept I will be, we’ll I don’t know what I understand! or accept!as it feels like a sorrowful soup I’m drowning in here….like you Sandy spent every moment with Sayge, never!! leaving her side, even hid in the shower (slept there with our walkie talkies) when during the worst of virus time they refused to let me stay…..we have always everyday been together since her birth, always slept together too, I can’t cope at all with this loss, enduring this existence without her is so beyond me and what! Enduring this alone!! Yes I agree stuff you all that have turned away from us in our time of desperation, it’s only here! That I can feel safe now with you all…..
Much love Sandy I’m sitting by your side
XxDeb