We are so glad that you have reached out to us here on the forums and our hearts go out to you at this sad and difficult time. You described your partner as being your ‘soulmate’ and ‘perfect person’ which portrays your deep connection to each other and the love and care you felt for him. I sincerely feel for you with the huge losses you are living with, and your sense of isolation.
It is very common for people experiencing grief to be on a rollercoaster of emotions including confusion, sadness, shock and disbelief. Be kind to yourself and allow yourself time to feel the emotions as they surface. There is no right or wrong way to grieve, it is a very personal journey for everyone.
Taking one day at a time is not always easy to hear, however, it can at times help us to take the pressure off ourselves in thinking we should be coping or managing in a particular way within a certain frame. Hoping this may help, as another perspective maybe.
You may find the following articles from our resource’s hub useful
Coping with Loss https://griefline.org.au/resources/coping-with-loss/
EAST – Connect to Health Routines https://griefline.org.au/resources/east-toolkit/
Reaching out for support can be a daunting task, and it is a testament to your strength and courage that you are willing reach out to others here.
Please stay in touch, and know that we are here for you.