it is absolutely normal to experience numbness after such a loss, grief can disrupt everything in our lives and sleep can be one of the first things we surrender. Coping with loss is something that can take some time to figure out and it’s often not a straightforward linear process, so being aware that what you’re experiencing is normal, and giving yourself permission to feel the way you feel without judgment, is absolutely an important step.
I am so pleased that you’ve come here and reached out, you’ll find there is a great community here. It sounds like in reaching out to us you have shown a lot of courage, and a lot of self-awareness around what’s happening for you. Those are great strengths to build on, and will help with your coping skills. One good place to start is here: https://griefline.org.au/resources/understanding-the-symptoms-of-grief/
It’s really important that you do get the support you need right now, especially as sleep is a really key element in being able to cope and stay healthy. You’re not alone here, we are all with you – take a look at some of the other shared stories here, and don’t be afraid to reach out to others.
We’re here for you.