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Hi Moon,
Every day is horrible. Constant pain and no end in sight. So much of what you write resonates with me. We had been helping RedKite a bit, https://www.redkite.org.au/news/new-24for24-appeal-is-raising-critical-funds/ this link has a video so you can see what my daughter was like. She had almost made it, the end was in sight. It’s all just so unfair. Six is too young to die. There’s so much she never got to do.
The mornings are definitely the hardest. When my eyes open (at 4:30am-5), I remember. She’s gone.. It’s like a never ending pit. A giant emptiness. The pain is constant.
The day we had to go back into QCH to have a new central line put in, Make-A-Wish threw her an early 6th birthday party at Wet-n-Wild with all her friends. She swam and went on slides (even with her NG tube). We stayed and played all day. She had the best time. She walked into 11B at 6pm in her swimmers with huge bunch of balloons, all tan, healthy and happy. Then the surgeries and chemo started to get her ready for a BMT. By day 17 she was dead.
I’m not sure how things go forward. I’m not sure how to survive.