Dear @helenlander thank you for reaching out and sharing your story during this incredibly difficult time. My heart aches to hear of the loss of your beloved partner, and of the grief and loneliness you are experiencing.
Please don’t feel embarrassed by what you are experiencing right now. It’s completely normal to feel lost, alone, and in need of love after losing someone so special. I want to reassure you that although it feels so raw and overwhelming right now, with time and patience you will begin to heal.
Reading your words it’s clear to me that you adored your partner. The small details you shared of your relationship paint a picture of devotion, love, and laughter.
I also see your past resilience shine through with the way you cared for your family after the passing of your husband all those years ago, they were so lucky to have your love and support during that difficult time. It’s reassuring to see you are reaching out for some support for yourself now.
I think it’s important at this time to treat yourself with compassion, kindness, and a touch of curiosity. Sit with your feelings and just experience them without judging yourself, there is no right way to grieve. Some of these resources on our page might help you with this https://griefline.org.au/resources/mindfulness-for-grief/
Once again, thanks for making the leap and reaching out. We are here for you.