I’m so sad to hear about the loss of both your parents and now your mother-in-law. I’ve experienced great loss but I can only imagine how hard and painful it would be to lose so many loved ones in such a short space of time.
It’s wonderful that your friends and coworkers are being so supportive. Please don’t be hard on yourself for feeling fragile at such a difficult time. It’s natural to worry about those around you, especially a partner, but it’s so important to take care of yourself. It sounds like that’s exactly what you’re trying to do which shows how strong you are, even if you don’t feel it.
Based on the timeline you are probably back at work now. I hope you were able to find another doctor or make another appointment and they helped you make a mental health plan, and you were able to find a counsellor too. I also hope the pressures of being acting manager were/are manageable given everything you’re going through.
When my brother passed away suddenly, I went through very dark times, but I did find focusing on my strengths and having a routine really helpful. Some of the resources on the Griefline website are about that, if you’re interested.
I also wish I’d gone to a grief counsellor and/or grief support group. There should be groups in your area or online that you can connect to.
Take care @katb and reach out again if you need support.