Hi there, just wanting hold out a hand of empathy, I hear you.
I too feel robbed of not being there the moment my father passed. I’d been by his side throughout everything.
Nurses sent me home (check on my kids/get a change of clothes briefly) and he passed whilst I was gone for that short time.
I remember hearing, but not really listening to them telling me ‘our loved ones often wait for us to leave the room, so they can’.
I didn’t find those words comforting, I wanted to be there, holding his hand.
You’ll see posts from me here and there on the forum, I’m new, but the same thing just happened with my 19yr old son.