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Hi Deb
I read the post you wrote in September 2021. As I read it I thought I was reading about myself. My husbands name was also Peter and he battled cancer of an unknown primary for nearly 5 years. He went into hospital on 20th October 2021 where they discovered the cancer had progressed to his liver. He came home on 1st November and with the help of the wonderful palliative care team he passed away here at home on 5th November 2021.
Initially I found myself changing furniture, sorting through things and trying to make things a “new normal.” Now I’m at the 8 week mark my emotions are all over the place. I find that the mornings are the worst when I wake to a quiet house. Then all I do is cry. We were home bodies it was us and our little dog. We had both lost partners before due to death and we had ourselves been married for 10 years. We were also estranged from our families because we got together. So I’m finding the loneliness crushing at times. I have friends who call or occasionally text and 2 wonderful friends who were there during our darkest days and who come out once a week to help me on our acreage.
I’ve learnt how to use a ride on mower and every day I make myself work outside basically until I can’t go on because it is the only way I know how to cope. Even when Peter was extremely ill, working kept me going and took my mind off things. But now I’m finding every day I cry uncontrollably and I find it overwhelming at times and wonder how in the hell will this ever stop. I’ve been through this before with my first husband and had forgotten how painful it can be. I know this is a testament to the love I have for Peter, but it does’t make it any easier.
I truly wish you well as you journey through your grief Deb. It is comforting to all of us who are grieving to know that others do care.🧡