Dear @morgana1963, I have just joined this forum. I am deeply saddened by your story and the loss of your beloved Thorin and my heart goes out to you. Everything you have said resonates with me. I feel your pain. My miniature dachshund, Swizzel, who I had since 3 months old was my raison detré. I don’t particularly like life, as I have mental health issues and I empathise with the troubles of this world. But Swizzel made everything just that much easier to cope with. Now that she is gone I feel hopeless. I feel empty and hollow and everything I used to have an interest in seems trivial and not the same anymore now that she is not with me. It’s been almost 6 weeks since Swizzel had to leave me, and like you, I had to make that heart wrenching decision on her behalf. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life. I can’t stop grieving and it feels like nothing will ever be the same again. I am thankful for the 16 and a half years off happiness she brought to me. And logically we all know that our companion animals will leave us at some point. But emotionally it’s very hard to accept when that time comes. It’s the emptiness that is left behind which I find so hard to cope with. Please know that you are not alone in your feelings, and that your grief and feelings of loss are valid.