Hi danji, your mum was irreplaceable. It is very hard. Make imaginary conversation with her and just imagine what she would say to you if she was still alive. She would want you to eat well and look after yourself. Every day is a new day of struggle. When I lost my mum in 2007 it took me a few years to get used to living without her. Life will never be the same. Try to build your life one piece back at a time. Only time can heal the hurt and pain.