Thank you. I am just not sure what to do anymore. I have been thinking for a few weeks about leaving my current job for various reasons but i am thinking I need to leave for the sake my own mind. I am trying not to think things and do quick judgements on things. I want to make the right decision and all but that is another issue.
It’s a shame that grief is almost like a taboo subject. I thought I was going alright and then in the last few days it’s hit me almost like to first thing of when my Mum died a few months ago. I have been able to be put onto a wait list for a grief counsellor so I have that coming up, it’s a two month waiting list, but I am seeing my Psychologist next week and can go from there again. It’s a shame that while I have been trying to reach out to others which I am trying to do, with family and friends, they aren’t being there for me.
I was at work today and a few times I had to remind myself to take a few deep breaths in, before saying something. I am scared to say things in case it’s said the wrong way and I snap at the wrong person and in my job, that is the last thing I want to do and need to do. I wanted to snap angrily at people, they hadn’t done anything wrong or said anything wrong but it was at that specific time, I wanted to snap and had to be careful.