Hi @JoJo90 i wish you never experienced this loss! Everytime i think of becoming a mother myself, i also miss my mother. I won’t be able to turn to her for advice or help at all. I have some memories and bits and pieces she told me, but thats it. I am not close to any other family members. She was my mum and my best friend. My friends have their mums along their motherhood journey but i wont have that. It is so hard. Sending you big big hugs. We cant take away the loss or the pain but i like to think mum is watching me from somewhere and wants me to be happy.