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Hello all love & strength to everyone xx Just over 3mths now since my partner passed, all legal things have been sorted with each one I had to deal with came intense emotions of wanting my partner here & not have material things instead ??? I am grateful we were both sensible over the years to maintain a comfortable life…simple but comfortable. Then there is keeping busy doing things around the house…everything reminds of my partner some days I have intense emotions have a cry feel desperate…try breathing exercises to calm the mind. It’s the roller-coaster as not every day is intense. I have been putting myself out to a few social gatherings…the next day I have been feeling exhausted. Today I had a strange feeling… I was feeling sad… I wasn’t crying at least not on the out side…I felt like I was crying on the “inside” is it even a thing ??? I should add I am functioning well enough … eating..sleeping basically doing all I need to which is a good thing. It can be hard to put into words the “feelings” of “grief “. I have got a weeks holiday organised with family in a few weeks & I think it will do me good to have a break from all the memories here at home xx take care all xx