@heather I have tears in my eyes and my heart is aching for you. You are in so much pain and hurt. I am sorry for what you have experienced. Your children have a strong mother who is navigating her feelings of grief, loneliness, and in so much distress. Your loss is immense as I read your experience. I want to say to you that youre allowed to grieve. Sometimes when Im fighting my feelings and judging myself, I remind myself why im feeling that way and that ofcourse the situation would make me feel that certain way. You have a new normal that you are navigating now and the journey is hard. We are here to listen and offer support in ways that we can. Be kind to yourself @heather, youre allowed to feel your feelings.