hey @Joncou im so sorry to hear about the loss of your dad and the complex feelings you are experiencing since then. i want to say to you – remember that you are allowed and can feel happy and grieve at the same time for different things, if thats how you are feeling. you are the expert in identifying your feelings but i hope you can be kind to yourself and allow yourself to feel all the feelings including grief. sometimes it does feel like everyone is busy and we are alone. i certainly feel that way sometimes. you are strong to reach out for support and your awareness of yourself is the key to your personal healing. we are hear for you.