It seems like the death of your friend’s mother re-kindled your grief for your own mother. Re-kindled emotions can be upsetting and create feelings of sadness, regret, loneliness. They also bring memories of joy and gratitude foe the happiness you had. It is ok to share those feelings and reminiscence or even cry with someone. Finding the right person can make a difference to the way you can cope with them. These forums are a safe place to explore those emotions. If you want to talk to someone from Griefline it can also be helpful.
Please stay in touch, and know that we are here for you.