Hi Sunflower (and all here) thank you for the ocean songs, exactly where I wish I was right now, sitting beside my son, his twin sister and his two elder brothers.
I can visualise it in my head, as we’d planned to a hire a houseboat long ago. I’ll just have to fall back on past memories, which are so bittersweet.
Tomorrow it will be 4 months since I last held my baby boy in my arms…. oh how I miss him so. I want to go back in time please.
I’ve been sobbing on and off all day, as everyday, but today when I went to put on his clothes, his smell had disappeared and I feel yet another layer of loss.
I’m going to have to be extra mindful for the little signs he sends me, I’ll take anything, so yes, I’ll be sitting on my deck tonight waiting for my faithful owl.
I know he’s nearby as he’s led me to another grieving mum on this forum, and to all of you.
I also felt his presence on Saturday. There is an elderly lady (90) from his church who has sent many cards to him over the years. She’s invited me a few times for morning tea, I finally said to myself I should be grateful and not deny her kindness, I’m so glad I did, we spent hours chatting about her life, going through old photos, it was precious. Thank you my son, I know you had a hand in this xxx