VM-Mancha1 is right – you sound like an incredible mum! You must be very strong to go through what you have. Your children are very lucky to have you.
It is completely understandable that you are struggling right now. It sounds like you are holding a heavy burden, first having your children leave the “nest” then tragically losing your son. You must be feeling a sense of loss not only for yourself, but for your family, and for what your son’s life may have been. It would be particularly difficult having seen him get so well after his transplant last year.
Are you in touch with any of the other families who you may have met through your son’s treatment at Westmead and St Vincent’s? I expect some of them may share the same feelings of loss and grief associated with having a child with a long-term illness. I wonder if you could reach out to them for support?
Our online community is also here to help you through this difficult time.