Please forgive me for not responding earlier. I am trying to take each day as it comes, but it is very difficult. A bill comes in to be paid, or a text comes up on his phone and I miss him all over again.
I try not to think about the future as it just seems pointless.
I have decided to get a pet, a rescue dog, something that needs me as much as I will need them. I can’t stand being in our house alone.
I throw out his old magazines, I have no use for them, but I feel like I am betraying him, like I am wiping away his existence. I miss him so much.