Hello yes I am sad at the moment . To start my partner’s Plaque has arrived this week so that set me off & yes people want to make you happy or for you to be happy but happy is not where I’m at at this spot on the merry-go-round. It changes overnight even. I was watching our favourite “footy” game & joined some friends on social media with comments etc. I could have been with people today but that was not where my mind was at. It’s almost like if I have excited or happy feelings it can be exhausting? I look at photos and still can’t believe she is gone. I printed out some photos to have around of other family as well. The feelings deep inside can be intense. I am organising a week away a family member will house sit & dog sit so I’m trying. I guess it’s getting use to living with the grief .