Hi @pandalover24740
It is so incredibly painful to lose a furry buddy, especially one as young as Cesar, and so early in your time together. The bond between dogs and humans is strong and loving, and so painful when either is bereaved of the other. Dogs seem to understand us in a way that is hard to explain. At the same time, it is not always possible for them to help us understand what they need, especially when they are unwell. It often happens that, by the time we understand something is not right, it is too late to intervene; or in some cases, it is not a condition that can be resolved. It is not always clear which is which. It is clear that Cesar was loved and treasured by you, and that you took his happiness and welfare seriously. It is understandable that you would feel guilty, or feel that you had not done enough; and at the same time, you acted on the information that you had in front of you.
You are not alone in that. Over many decades, I have said farewell to many beloved pets, sometimes unexpectedly, none of whom were any easier than the other, and none of whom are forgotten, or loved any less. Looking back, I am still sad about the timing of some of my decisions. Nevertheless, they remain as I made them, with the best intentions and information of the day.
It remains to find ways to support yourself through the painful emotions that come with loss, and to find ways of remembering and honouring your mate that work for you. From what I know of dogs, he wouldn’t blame you, he’d just try to comfort you.
You may find this article helpful,
How To Grieve For A Pet – Understanding Your Grief
Or, if you feel ready, you may wish to connect with a caring volunteer on the helpline (1300 845 745)
Take care of yourself, friend.
