[holdinghope25]

Thankfully he never had to stay at the vet although they did want me to leave him there but I couldn’t. I’m so relieved that he is doing better now, but the anxiety is definitely running higher after this scare. Reaching out here is helpful to share these experiences and to receive support. I’m really grateful for everyone’s messages here, so thankyou to you all.

[VM-Serenity66]

Dear holdinghope25,

I’m really glad to hear that your puppy is home with you again, and improving. It must be a great relief. Experiencing anxiety must make it that much more difficult for you when you suspect something is wrong with your new friend. Good on you for getting everything checked out and well done for responding to the situation. If phone conversations are challenging for you, I’m very glad that the forum is here as a safe channel for you to express your feelings and seek support.

[holdinghope25]

Thanks for checking in. It’s been really touch and go for me over the past few days. Thankfully my puppy is doing better and back to his playful self. Whilst it would be great to talk to someone i struggle with making phone calls but thankyou.

[VM-flo]

Dear holdinghope25
I just thought I’d check in and see how you are doing since you posted last. If you feel like a chat, please reach out to us here anytime: 1300 845 745. We are here to listen and here for you.

[holdinghope25]

That’s just the thing, I don’t have any support around me so at the moment with the way things are it’s just a matter of me reaching out to crisis lines trying to get by. It’s been a really rough few days and it’s sent my mental health spiralling out of control, trying hard to focus on spending time with my puppy and just taking each moment as it comes. It gets exhausting when you are living minute by minute. Thanks for the support, it really means alot.

[vm-oscar-at]

You have been through multiple losses and grief journeys with your previous dog companions @holdinghope25, so it’s understandable that the past experiences are impacting the time shared with your new puppy. It’s wonderful that you’ve started to create a bond with the pup, and it sounds like you are both already quite in-tune with one another. Finding the best way to cope through an anxious period can be challenging, and I hope that you’ve built some supports around you throughout your mental health wellbeing journey. The forum community and Griefline volunteers are available to chat in those moments when you need to connect with someone as well.

[holdinghope25]

Hi, sorry things have been really bad for me over the past few days and I’m not coping. I had to take my puppy to the vet for an urgent appointment, it’s baffled the vets which really doesn’t help my anxiety as there’s no answer or treatment that’s a definite cure. They wanted me to leave him there to monitor him but I broke down crying and freaked out cos it brought back all the trauma from when I left my girl there then a couple of hours got the worst news ever. So he is home with me and he has to have an antibiotic cream applied for the next 5 days but if that doesn’t help then they don’t know what’s next. So it’s been very much touch and go.

It’s not what I needed and I really just feel like the world is against me and the I’m not allowed to have happiness.

[VM-Serenity66]

Dear Holdinghope25,

I notice that it’s been a few days since you posted about your concerns for your new puppy. If you feel comfortable to, do let us know how things are progressing for you. Remember that, even though you have many challenges, you also have a lot of experience now. Please reach out to the forum, or to the helpline, if you need some extra support.

[holdinghope25]

So today my worst fears are becoming a reality as something is wrong with my puppy. My anxiety is really getting the better of me, thinking the worst case scenario. Really feeling like i have the worst luck in the world, left questioning what did i do to deserve this, where did I go so wrong, why are bad things always happening to me.

[holdinghope25]

Thankyou for your kind words. It really took alot to take that step to get this puppy but I’m really glad that I did. Having him is life changing for me in so many ways, I struggle with many mental health issues and other health issues so he will be trained in many areas to help support me. He has already learnt alot of the basics and is now learning some tasks to help me with everyday life, he has learnt how to interrupt behaviours that could be harmful to myself and provides comfort when I’m upset and getting worked up. We already have a very strong bond, he sleeps on my pillow every night and is very focused on me.

The bond with each of my dogs has been different, each of them unique and special and i have so many amazing memories to treasure from them all. I’m so grateful to have my new puppy and we are starting to make memories together as we go through this journey.

Thankyou for all the support, it really means alot to me. I don’t have any family or friends to talk to so being able to share here and get support is really helpful.

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