Lost without my Mum

[kerri]

I lost my Mum late October and it still doesn’t seem real. I just feel so lost without her. She was my rock. We would talk, text or FaceTime every day and now i just feel so alone. Then last week my best friend lost her Mum (who was like a second Mum to me) and it brought it all back again. I am trying to stay strong for my family but i don’t know how much longer i can live in denial about my feelings.

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[kerri]

Im so sorry for your loss leighstott. I hope you are doing okay. I am getting there. I am about to take a week off of work and go visit my best friend. Im hoping that spending time with her will help us both

Just remember that the people here are great to talk to have helped me a lot

[leighstott]

I lost my Mum last week and I am feeling exactly the same as you Kerri. I don’t have a family and it’s so hard.

I hope you are doing ok Kerri.

[kerri]

Thank you vmLila, my best friend was the right person for me but now we are both going through the same thing it is hard for us both. I have spoken too a couple of people on griefline and also to my own psychologist and my Doctor. They have all been helpful but i still feel lost and alone most of the time. I have a journal that i write in and it is my way of talking to my Mum about my day. It seems to be helping me a bit as i feel more comfortable writing to her than talking to a photo out loud. Thank you again for your kind words

[kerri]

Thanks Deb, It was hard on Christmas Day as one of my younger Grandsons (Mr 4yr old) asked why there was an empty chair at the table. We had all booked to go out for lunch months before Mum had passed so thats why there was an empty chair there. My daughter told him that it was for GG (his name for her) but she wasnt here. His reply was yes she is she is up in the sky watching over us all. It made me cry and i felt embarrassed crying in the restaurant so i walked to the bathroom and just spent some time in there alone. Then after lunch everyone came back to my house for presents and again it was very upsetting when they all left as i just felt alone again. My husband is here but he just really doesnt get it

[vmLila]

Dear Kerri,

It seems like the death of your friend’s mother re-kindled your grief for your own mother. Re-kindled emotions can be upsetting and create feelings of sadness, regret, loneliness. They also bring memories of joy and gratitude foe the happiness you had. It is ok to share those feelings and reminiscence or even cry with someone. Finding the right person can make a difference to the way you can cope with them. These forums are a safe place to explore those emotions. If you want to talk to someone from Griefline it can also be helpful.
Please stay in touch, and know that we are here for you.

[debsayge]

Dear Kerri,
Heartbreaking Kerri,
The richest most loving sentiment I could gently give you is ….
Be real, authentic, it’s important to feel how you feel….this shows others around you that it’s okay, even when it’s not feeling okay… I’m no expert, just sharing,
So much love
XxDeb

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