Lost sibling and close friend within such a short period

[xereus]

I have recently lost my sister to an overdose and a week later a really close friend had overdosed as well, I am currently the centre of blame for my family with them telling me I didn’t do enough to help my sister and it is making me feel responsible for her passing and its not making the other passing i had experienced any easier, I am currently using really unhealthy coping mechenisims to get through this and it just hurts so much on a daily basis i feel like i can’t function or seeking validation from others just to stay numb to everything around \.

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