Missing my mum

I lost my mum in Jan this year,she was in hospital for nearly 12 weeks we didn’t know we were going to loose her until the week before it happened,I’m so lost without her,how do u all cope with the loss? my whole year has been one thing after another and she was my go to person im really missing that,she should still b here life is not fair at all,my mind runs overtime there’s so many what ifs,why did it happen to our family,I can’t eat properly,sleep what’s that these days