Struggle with Mortality

Dear all,

I have been struggling with Mortality since the passing of my loved one 6 months ago.
I know mortality is subjective and everyone has their own take on it. But one thing I have learned from my loved one’s death is that nothing is concrete or goes as you planned it too.

But I am worried I will be very underprepared as an “Adult” when my parents both pass. Ideally, they should have 20 years left.
I live with them and can’t financially put a roof over my head without them. And instead of pushing those thoughts away as I always have, I am dealing with them.
The anxiety is through the roof. I know you shouldn’t think about things before they happen, but I think I should be thinking about it NOW.
I don’t have a clue where to start.

I still don’t know why life has to be so cruel, but I do know I will be saying goodbye to more loved ones. Animals don’t live as long as humans. And older humans should pass before younger humans.

Thank-you for listening,
ABC01