Struggling to mourn

im safe just sad, last week I witnessed my dad’s passing in hospital as his 10 month battle against a cancer relapse ended

still at a shock of words, each day has been so difficult since

the phrase “If you want to die, throw yourself into the sea, and you’ll find yourself fighting to survive. You don’t actually want to die; you want to kill something inside you.” has been pretty prevalent in my mind lately

i really wish i could eradicate every sense of sadness, stress and moodiness in me, my relationships would be so much better. even eating at home feels like it exerts more effort to before

i just want to chase happiness, not chasing an internship or a career