Upcoming loss

He is near that age – I have been told anticipatory grief. Waiting and waiting for some time. I’m new to forum.

I loss my mother some years ago and it was strange time. I am estranged from father and really is was BAD guy but still father.

I had seen a show on tv about inheritance and I am concerned about this, contact with family, lawyers, nothing- it’s all in future.

I know he has not died yet but really I’m looking regardless at cemetery records awaiting it. He is unhealthy man and really he is really outliving what I expected he would get to. I check these records when I think I can handle it.

I was close initially to my mother but not father. There was turmoil in family. Bad father issues. I mean BAD.

I’m not sure of my reaction and someone said to reach out to grief line.

I know that he has not died, so sorry if I’m way off base but it’s shortly.

He is just bad person and really I may have ANY reaction.