Dear Danielle – I’m glad you were able to reach out at this time, and want to assure you that you are not alone.
I can see how much you are still grieving over losing your mum, and I’m so sorry for that loss. Clearly she has been such an important support for you while dealing with your own health issues. I think it is completely understandable that you would find yourself in a very difficult place trying to negotiate that loss, compounded with difficult family dynamics and having a fear of further loss with an older grandmother.
Are you in a position to be able to reactivate any of the support structures your mum helped with in the past – like a GP or psychologist? It sounds like at this time you need to have additional support around you, and if you are able to reconnect with services who know you and your history they could be best placed to help you navigate this complex time.
I don’t know if your sister is dependent in some way on you, or old enough to be a source of support, or whether you are able to talk to your grandmother about what you are feeling right now?
Griefline has a lot of good resources to refer to that may be of help https://griefline.org.au/resources/
Especially if you are feeling overwhelmed, please reach out to the telephone helpline (1300 845 745 between 8am and 8pm EST) and there will be someone to talk to you so you feel less alone.
Please stay connected with us, the fact you were able to reach out at this time and have a clear view of the multiple dynamics triggering your health is a strength that can be built on to find the next steps you need to take.
