In October 2021 I relocated from Germany to Australia to be with my Australian husband. In December my father (69) got diagnosed with cancer. He started chemotherapy and was full of hope and will to live. In March, radiation was added. On April 8th he was told that there is nothing that can be done for him. He died 22 days later on April 30, 2022. Even though I went back to Germany in February and spent 5 weeks with him, I feel like I failed him. I called him every day. I still feel like it wasn’t enough. I feel like I failed him in his darkest days. And now I am here in Australia, far away from my whole family and I miss him terribly. On top of that, last Saturday my father-in-law passed away. Of course, I am supporting my husband the best I can, but that happening awakened all memories from my own dad’s passing. I feel like I am not strong enough to get through all of this. I am trying to focus on all the good things in my life but picking myself up every single day is quite exhausting. I hope that someone who shares my struggle might have some advice? Thank you in advance!