Reply To: How to navigate Early Grief, Lost my 6 year old daughter 3 weeks ago.

[debsayge]

Dear broken friend
thank you for your letter as I respect how hard this can be. It is always so lovely to hear from you.
I am the same as you grieving mumma, going under so much, I cry on waking and sleeping and in between just a wreck, every aspect is a challenge and unending despair.
Oh your son, so much love to both, all we can do is keep them very close.
I’m grateful actually I’ve always kept my children close, Archer went through all Sayge’s ordeal we just stayed together, gosh I just wish you were closer so they could be together Archer with his grief (he wouldn’t realise this) has made a huge mini golf course in part of our property,it’s taken him a year or so, takes 2 hrs to play plus many other building projects so I see he’s being very creative…the kids and I, well that was always what we did…that’s what we do weed, garden, play mini golf, like tired sad zombies, I cry a lot and he is very compassionate and patient, he’s lost his absolute best friend, me also,my perfect person, and I see that he’s so so sad, and we are all so so exhausted.
We are also despairing over some family friends who just suddenly abandoned us, it’s been crushing too. I’ve gone under with the betrayal, but now realised, we are better off and hopeful to make more loving friends(here is a good place to start, we’re the only ones who know)
I just feel like weve been flung in some parallel universe now where we don’t know where to go, don’t know the language, and we’re invisible to everyone.
I’ve been slowly absorbing Joanne books, I find the small grieving is loving the best as I feel like I have a friend who speaks my language, I mean not one thing helps, however hopeful I can keep my bleeding heart open. Just hurts so bad.
I’m hoping we can speak again soon, I love you so much
XxDeb