Hi Sam Thanks for your kindness and support.
I feel sorry for your loss and totally understand the feeling when there is not a lot of support in Australia.
My whole family is also overseas and I only have a couple of family members in Australia.
I also understand the fact that emotions come back and go away sometimes for no reason.
It is also unpredictable, I guess it is just built in our brain to switch on and off before it would explode and break our immune system.
It is OK to cry and move on with life carrying the sorrow for your loved ones.
They never die if you remember the time you spent with them.
I would like to think about my dad whenever I want even it kills me when I think about him.
I also believe when my time comes, he will pick me up from heaven.