Thanks GL friend, I will try writing my thoughts and feelings when they feel overwhelming. I think because it was Mum I could talk to when I felt upset, I need to find a new thing to do with those feelings.
I’m sorry to hear about your mum too. I sometimes used to wonder what it would be like to lose one of my parents, but I couldn’t imagine it. And now it’s happened too soon and without warning and I can’t even begin to explain how blown apart I feel. I suppose with time it might feel less shattering, but losing mum will always hurt.
I wonder what you did for yourself in the early days after losing your mum – if you don’t mind?